Tuesday, November 11, 2014

3週間くらい前の書きかけの日記

書きかけの日記のようなものをフォルダ内に見つけた。未完成だけど、この先何が起こったのか全然思い出せないので書き加えず、載せてみることにした:


10月23日 木曜日

六時五十分起床。目覚ましは六時半に鳴ったが三回ほどスヌーズボタンを押し、ようやくベッドから這い上がる。ひんやりと冷たい空気。冬のようだ。外はどんより、昨日から雨が降り続いている。寝癖がひどいのでシャワーを浴びる。やっと目が覚めてきた。まだマイクはベッドに居るようだ。私が大学で日本語を教える月曜と木曜はふたり同じ時間に家を出て、同じ電車に乗り込んで出かける。髪の毛を乾かしているとマイクがゴソゴソと起きて来て、ボサボサ頭のままキッチンで私のためにコーヒーを淹れ始める。まずは一杯、私がお化粧をしながら飲むためのコーヒーを淹れてくれる。それから休む間もなく私が授業中に飲む用のコーヒーを続けて作り、ポットに入れてくれる。七時四十五分。ふたり慌ただしく家を出る。外はまだ冷たい雨が降る。私は短めの茶色のブーツを履いて出たが、階段の途中で気変わりし、家に一旦戻り紺の長靴に履き替えた。七時五十三分。渋谷から来る新宿駅行きのバスを交差点で見かけて、ふたり走り始める。永福町や方南町から来るバスもあるが、いつも混んでいて座れないので、いつだって空いていて座れる渋谷バスを私達は「ゆとりバス」と呼び、好んで利用する。八時ちょっと過ぎ。新宿駅に着く。朝のラッシュで駅構内は幾十もの人の波が寄せては返し、うまく歩けない。マイクの手を握りそのひと波ひと波をすり抜けてなんとか小田急線の地下改札に辿り着く。改札の左横にあるおむすび屋で私は小さいタラコと鮭のおむすびを二つ、マイクは大きい明太高菜のを一つ買う。改札をくぐり、階段を上がり、ホームへ。マイクはキオスクでコーラを買う。八時十八分発の急行片瀬江ノ島行きに乗り込む。乗る車両は出来るだけ前の方。私はどの車両でも構わないのだが、マイクは端の車両の方が比較的人が少ないのでそれを好む。席に座り出発までの数分、私達はつい今しがた買ったおむすびの包みを開け、もぐもぐとやり始める。私は小さなタラコのむすびを食べ、鮭の方は後で食べるようにバッグにしまった。ふと車内の広告に目をやると、東京農業大学の「収穫祭」というイベントの広告がある。今日ちょうど「収」という漢字を教えるので丁度いい、とマイクにその写真を撮ってもらう。そうこうしているうちに発車の時間。私は一昨日届いた黒柳徹子の本を読み始める。一言一言が面白く、ゆっくり噛み締めて読みたいのだが、もう100頁くらい読んでしまった。早く続きが読みたいが、いつまでも終わって欲しくない本だ。こういう本に出会えた時は本当に幸せだ。八時四十分。成城学園前着。ここでマイクとは暫しのお別れ。彼はこのまま1時間ほど電車に揺られ、湘南台駅まで行く。アイラブユーと言い、電車を降りる。隙あらばキスをして降りるが、今日はしなかった。私でも人目が気になる時がある。

Sunday, October 5, 2014

A new translation of "Love" by Tanikawa

Love

Love  It's easy to say
Love  Not too difficult to write either

Love  We all know the feeling
Love  It is to like someone until you grow sad

Love  You always want them to be near
Love  You wish them to live forever

Love  It's not the word, love 
Love  Not just a feeling either

Love  It's to not forget the distant past 
Love  It's to believe in a future you can't see

Love  It's to think over and over again  
Love  It's to live at the risk of one's life

---Shuntaro Tanikawa
(English translation by Naoko Smith



  
あい
(『みんなやわらかい』より 1999年)
          谷川俊太郎

あい 口で言うのはかんたんだ
愛 文字で書くのもむずかしくない
 
あい 気持ちはだれでも知っている
愛 悲しいくらい好きになること

あい いつでもそばにいたいこと
愛 いつまでも生きていてほしいと願うこと

あい それは愛ということばじゃない
愛 それは気持ちだけでもない

あい はるかな過去を忘れないこと
愛 見えない未来を信じること
 
あい くりかえしくりかえし考えること
愛 いのちをかけて生きること

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Thursday, September 11, 2014

Words from Berlin

My bible here : "Berlin Guidebook" by Masato Nakamura

So I'm in a hotel room in Berlin, watching local news on TV, munching on chips, drinking grape juice and trying to write a digest of my stay so far. Mike and I decided to come to Berlin and have a little vacation before and after his meetings on Sep 10th and 11th. I had never been to Berlin or Germany before, and my teaching job at a college doesn't begin until the mid-September, so we couldn't think of any reasons not to. 

as I write this blog at a hotel room...

We arrived here last Wednesday, so it's been exactly one week since then. Everything seemed "wunderbar!" the first couple of days; we enjoyed the gorgeous fall weather (coming from muggy Tokyo where it was still the midst of summer), there were no yucky mosquitoes (while Tokyo seems to be suffering from a pandemic of Dengue fever, believed to have been spread from mosquitoes in Yoyogi park), everyone speaks English, we didn't have any problems getting around the town (thanks to the excellent subway system in Berlin), trains run on time and more frequently than the ones in Tokyo—plus it's never crowded even when everyone seems to be heading home. I was like, wow! I could imagine living here! 

First exploration day! Near Kurfürstendamm street, Berlin

On our 3rd or 4th day here though, I was already starting to notice shortcomings of this "wunderbar" city, and this makes me realize how quickly I take things for granted and start bitching about what I miss or what I don't have. For example, I was getting annoyed by not being able to find public bathrooms easily, because there are *always* toilets at the train stations in Japan (though when in Japan, I often complain about the presence of filthy traditional Japanese toilets and how unnecessary they are.) Even if I find toilets here, we usually have to pay to use, so before I know it, I naturally began to rant, "Come on! Who needs to pay to pee? It's the most basic of minimum human rights we should never have to ask for!!"

Subway station, Berlin

In addition to the lack of free public toilets, I began to notice how dirty some streets are here; there's trash littered around in some places even though there are trash bins available (for everyone to use, for free!) at every corner. I often heard people outside Japan saying how clean the streets in Tokyo are, but I'd never thought Tokyo was such a clean city before I came here; I was wrong! Considering there are 20-30 million people living there and no trash cans available on the street, Tokyo does hella good job keeping the city as clean as it is.  

Mauerpark—with some garbage scattered on the grass, in spite of several huge dumpsters in the park

I assure you that when I go back to Tokyo I'll find everything to be marvelous the first couple of days but I will soon find something to complain about; whether it's the humidity or mosquitoes, I don't want to do that! So that's why I wanted to take time to write my reflections while I'm still in Berlin. 

Trying to look pensive at Nikolaiviertel

There are things that Berlin and Germany in general do so well, so much better than Tokyo or Japan do; how they face and handle some of the darker chapters in their history is one. We went to the Holocaust memorial (Holocaust-Mahnmal) just a couple of blocks from Brandenburger Tor. There, you'll see thousands of stone monuments laid out in all different heights. We couldn't find any sign or a board explaining what they are so we decided to walk in the narrow paths in between the monuments. Within a few seconds of being down there, you'll realize what these stones represent and at the same time, you start having some indescribable fear. However, in order to escape from that scary maze, you'll need to continue walking in the narrow paths. The taller the stones get, the scarier it gets; you never know what's going to happen at the very next corner. I almost bumped into someone at the corner who was also finding his way out. 

Holocaust-Mahnmal, Berlin
These stones were laid out pretty close to each other and are a lot taller than us, so we needed to be careful not bumping into other people coming from different directions.

We then found this very insignificant looking sign just a few minutes walk from the Holocaust memorial and learned that it was where Hitler and his wife committed suicide. We couldn't believe how so unremarkable it looked compared to how those Japanese war criminals are treated (as gods) in Japan. There, too, we feel like we eye-witnessed great efforts and commitments of German people, not wanting to repeat that not-so-proud part of their history again, without hiding or turning their back from it. They must not be proud of their dark history during the Nazi regime, but they must be very proud of how they dealt with (and still dealing with) history and accepted and made amends for past wrongdoings. I am amazed and saddened by how hard it is for Japan to do the same. 

Where Adolf Hitler committed suicide — his underground bunker

Other than having free public toilets at the train stations, perhaps, there are things Japan/Japanese people do so well, too; superb customer service is one. I always thought that cliche "o-mo-te-na-shi" is overrated, but now I have to disagree with myself-then. Of course there are rude people everywhere you go, but Japanese people normally tend to go out of their way to be polite and kind—though not necessarily always friendly—especially to their customers. When you are a customer in Japan, you should be treated like a king or even a god (as in "customer is god" お客様は神様です), but in foreign countries, I'm not god, and I sometimes even feel like I'm actually working for them! 

Monday evening after we came back from Hamburg, I took a short nap. When I got up and opened the curtain, there was "super-moon" gracefully floating in the sky; that same moon that Japanese people enjoyed several hours ago. I realized some things are the same, even on the other side of the world. Everywhere you go, there are pros and cons. No place is perfect—though Sweden or Switzerland seem to be perfect, but I'm sure I'll find something to bitch about once I visit there. So, once I'm back in Tokyo, I promise I will try to focus on the bright side and won't complain too much, for a week or two at least! :)))))

Super-Moon in Berlin! (Monday, Sep 8th, 2014)

More later... 

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Tuesday, August 5, 2014

日本で日本語を教えるという事① Teaching Japanese in Japan 〜Vol. 1

今年4月より、世田谷区にある成城大学で日本語上級クラスを教えさせてもらえることになり、先月末、無事前期の授業を終えることができた。前期と言っても、昨年9月から成城で学んで来た交換留学生にとってはこの学期をもって成城での一年が終わることになる。私はこれまでアメリカの大学院で3年、そしてミドルベリー大学の夏期日本語学校で教えた経験しかなく、日本で学ぶ学生、しかも上級レベルを教えるのは初めてとあって、最初は七転八倒の日々...。それでも学生達はそんな未熟な私に匙を投げることなく、最後までついてきてくれた。ご苦労様、よく頑張ったね、そしてありがとう、という気持ちを込めて、期末テストが終わった翌週、学生達を下北沢にあるメキシコ料理店に誘った。

下北沢にあるメキシコ料理店Tepitoにて。左から夫マイク、米国出身のバックさん、オマーン&フランス出身のヒッシャムさん、オーストラリア出身のベンさん、そして米国出身のアンディーさん。

4月から7月までの3ヶ月は授業の準備で精一杯でブログを書いている余裕がなかったので、これから9月の新学期が始まるまでの間、先学期のこと、日本で日本語を教えるというのはどういうことなのか、という私感を少しずつ書いていこうと思う。


Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A new translation of 「夕立の前」 BEFORE THE SUMMER EVENING RAIN SHOWER by Tanikawa

BEFORE THE SUMMER EVENING RAIN SHOWER
 

Stretching out on a chair like a dog and smelling the air of the summer
The sound of the harpsichord, which enchanted me so much only a moment ago,

Began to seem like some outrageous temptation
It's because of this stillness

Stillness sounds from where a number of faint lives resonate
Hum of horsefly, murmur from the distance, a breeze fluttering the leaves of grass


Can't hear the silence no matter how carefully you listen but

Stillness comes to our ears with ease
Through the dense atmosphere surrounding us

Silence belongs to a dilution of the infinity of the universe
Stillness is rooted in this Earth

But I wonder if I heard enough of it
When a woman accused me, sitting in this same chair
Sharp thorns of her words lead to hair roots intertwined underground

There was tranquility lurking in her voice, refusing to fade away into the silence of death  
Lightening flashed from clouds in the distance to the ground 
After a while, the rumbling of thunder slowly drew a long tail

The sound from the time before humans emerged in this world
We can hear still


---Shuntaro Tanikawa
(Translated by Naoko Smith)

Taken from the bridge near Shinjuku Central Park (7/22/14)


夕立の前(『世間知ラズ』より 1993)

谷川俊太郎

椅子の上でからだを伸ばし犬みたいに夏の空気を嗅ぐと
今しがたぼくをあんなにうっとりさせたチェンバロの音色が
何かけしからん誘惑のようにも思えてくる
それというのもこの静けさのせいだ

静けさはいくつものかすかな命の響き合うところから聞こえる
虻の羽音 遠くのせせらぎ 草の葉を小さく揺らす風......

いくら耳をすませても沈黙を聞くことは出来ないが
静けさは聞こうと思わなくとも聞こえてくる
ぼくらを取り囲む濃密な大気を伝わって
沈黙は宇宙の無限の希薄に属していて
静けさはこの地球に根ざしている

だがぼくはそれを十分に聞いただろうか
この同じ椅子に座って女がぼくを責めたとき
鋭いその言葉の棘は地下でからみあう毛根につながり
声には死の沈黙へと消え去ることを拒む静けさがひそんでいた

はるか彼方の雲から地上へ稲光りが走り
しばらくしてゆっくりと長く雷鳴が尾をひいた
人間がこの世界に出現する以前から響いていた音を
私たちは今なお聞くことが出来る

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Friday, June 13, 2014

Friday, June 6, 2014

梅雨入り the rainy season has begun in Tokyo

夜通し降り続いた雨
今朝も懲りずに
ベランダのバジルの葉を濡らしてる

梅雨どき生まれの私は
雨音を聴くと心躍り
そして落ち着く

今日もお気に入りの
グリーンの長靴履いて
東京の街を闊歩するのです